… It was only because these Western clothes held him together that he was able to keep on walking at all – but to think of stiffening a limp, helpless body, shackling it hand and foot, and driving it ahead

with shouts of “Keep going! Don’t you dare collapse!”

It was enough to make a man want to cry…

– Jun’ichirō Tanizaki – Seven Japanese Tales

Life doesn’t run a clear course …

It flows through from within

It’s supposed to take you places and leave markings on your skin…

And those marks are just a sign of something true …

And when the sounds of laughter still echo in your dreams

The smoke screen disappears and nothing is what it seems

And your tears have been worthwhile

They got you through to a different place and time where all is new

To the start of something fine …

And your moments of clarity scream the hell within

When you fade like a rose in the gloom love waits outside your room …

– Poets of the fall – Love will come to you

Ph : Daniel Murtagh

What’s in me is mostly tired –

Not this or that,

Not at all or anything.

Tiredness like that, himself,

Tired.

The subtlety of useless sensations,

The violent passions for nothing,

The intense love for someone who’s supposed to,

All these things –

Those and what’s missing in them forever -;

All of this is exhausting.

This tiredness,

Tired.

There is no doubt who love the infinite,

There is no doubt who desires the impossible,

There are definitely those who do not want anything.

Three types of idealistic, and I none of them:

Because I love infinitely the finite,

Because I wish impossibly possible,

Because I want everything, or a little more, if it can be,

Or even if it can’t be…

And the result?

For them life lived or dreamed,

For them the dream dreamed or lived,

For them the average between everything and nothing, that is, this…

For me only one big, one deep,

And, oh with what happiness infecundo, tiredness,

A supremíssimo weariness,

Íssimo, íssimo, íssimo,

Tired…

9-10-1934

Poetry of álvaro de Campos. Fernando Pessoa. Lisbon: Attica, 1944 (Imp. 1993)